My Locality is...

As I was getting lost I found that it did not take much for me to get lost because I do not know my way around the city very well. Let’ just say I don’t get out much. I have lived in this city my entire life and I cannot honestly tell you how to get around town. I have restricted myself to certain parts of town and everywhere else is a complete and total mystery to me. So, you can only imagine how utterly terrified I was to go outside my comfort zones to get lost. An anxiety jumps into my throat and sudden panic reaches over me once I am lost. I can feel every muscle in my body get tight and my mind goes blank. My first instinct is to call someone but I have to put that aside and just try and think to myself I need to get out there and experience my home town.
Before this project I never knew how really lost I am in my own town, even in my own life. I was walking and walking and no matter where I was I had no idea what was going on around me and where I would be going next. I don’t really know the people on campus let alone the people on my block or the people in my town. It is a very overwhelming experience to not know the people around you and to not know where you are going. I think the thing that worries me the most is not knowing where to go next. The more I think about the statement in class about not knowing where you are will lead to you not knowing where you are going does ring true. How do we put ourselves out there to open up to those that are around us without putting ourselves in danger?
My whole life I have been raised to be scared of the unknown and of those I don’t know. So, my locality my place is just me. I stand alone in my room working on whatever needs to be done at that moment and sometimes just staring. My locality has been myself at home in a quiet place where nothing is happening and no one is around. So, this project has really opened my eyes to the fact that I need to really open up to my surroundings and just to people around me in general.